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• March 31, 2005 at 11:54 pm #5187
  B. Greene

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  I just haven’t been able to post. I don’t know what to say. I’m afraid our famailies faith has been shaken to the very core. I also know it has been very hard on all of you, I think we all thought he would make it I know Ron thought he could to the very end and never stopped fighting. To have him die is such a horrible manner is byond words.

  We were able to keep him at home but it was a terrible price for all of us to pay. think in someways it might have been even harder in the hospital but I do think they could have mananged the pain better than we were able to abd he wouldn’t have had to suffer like he did. My daughter was with me all the time for the last week and where she found the strength I don’t know. I truly belive I owe her my life I could never have done it alone. I hate for her to have to live with such memories and I don’t know what to do for her to help.

  The funeral will be this Saturday, at our home, as Ron wanted. We’ve cleaned all day with a whole crew and hope things are somewhat ready. I’m here alone and thought of all of you and also thought it was about time I put my feelings aside and wrote to all of you who have been so dear to us.

  We are all trying to take it a day at a time as we really have no choice but to go on. So, we will try to get through the funeral. Ron never discussed it until nearly the very end but he had things worked out the way he wanted. He stunned me by wanting cremation and I am having a very hard time with that but I would feel worse probably if I didn’t honor his wishes. Hard decision.

  To all of you fighting this damn disease please don’t give up new treatments are coming every day, you CAN DO IT.

  As I said I have no plans just trying to get from one day to another as I can’t even begin to imagine what life will be without him.

  Thank you all. I will write when I can.

  Barbra

  April 1, 2005 at 12:46 am #5188
  Terri

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  Dear Barbra, You still are just an inspiration, please accept my condolences and know I am thinking and praying for you and your family. I hope at some point you can find peace in knowing the pain is gone. No words can express how I feel but know we are always here for you.
  God Bless you and your family.
  With deepest symphaty,
  Terri

  April 1, 2005 at 1:23 am #5189
  eve

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  dear barbara

  may ron rest in peace and may you eventually find inner peace

  eve

  April 1, 2005 at 1:50 am #5190
  sarah

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  Dear Barbra, My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Find comfort in your faith, family and friends. We are all here for you.
  God Bless,
  Sarah

  April 1, 2005 at 2:37 am #5191
  Barb

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  Barbra,
  We’re thinking of you and your daughter, and praying for strength and peace.
  I’ve thought several times since learning of Ron’s death that maybe he and Dad have met and are enjoying each other in person.
  Dad was cremated, too. I hadn’t ever known anyone who was, and was pretty uncomfortable with it at first – still am a little, I guess. But, it was what he wanted (and Mom will be, too, when the time comes).
  I’m so glad that your daughter was able to be with you the last few days. It is exhausting work – both physically and emotionally – but, is a labor of love. Don’t worry about her memories. It may be hard now, but I’m sure she is thankful that she was able to be there with both of you. It is a tremendously intimate time.
  God bless you, Barbra.
  ~Barb M.

  April 1, 2005 at 4:37 am #5192
  Sad About Dad

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  Dear Barb,

  I am so sorry about Ron. There are no words to help in this situation. Before I started posting. I lurked around here for a almost a year and or two rooting for Ron and hoping that he would make it and be free of this.

  After something like this it is very hard. I am sorry you had to go through this, you and your daughter.

  My prayers are with you.

  April 1, 2005 at 5:01 am #5193
  shirlsgirl

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  Dear Barbra,

  I’m so sorry.

  Thinking of you and your daughter…

  Please take care, Jody

  April 1, 2005 at 6:29 am #5194
  Missy

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  Barbra ~
  I am so sorry to hear about Ron. You and your daughter were faithful and caring to Ron. My Dad and I were with my Mom around the clock for her last 10 days in the hospital. I was with her when she took her last breath. Your daughter and I have something in common…my Dad said I was the strong one too. I didn’t think I was that strong, but I know I got my strength from above to get me through those days. I pray for you and your daughter and the rest of your family in the days to come. I know it won’t be easy, but I know there will be family, friends and your “special friends” from this forum that will be holding you up in prayer to give you strength.
  Missy

  Mom (76) diagnosed with Refractory Cytopenia with Multilineage Dysplasia (August 2004) – Went to Heavenly Home Dec 8, 2004

  April 1, 2005 at 2:38 pm #5195
  Marsha

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  Barbra,

  My heart goes out to you and your family, my dad was cremated also as will my mom when the time comes. They will be buried together. My wish for you is that as you have to go thru this grieving process that you can soon have the memories that will give you peace instead of the last few memories. God will give you the strength to go on and he will give your daughter the peace that she will need too. My prayers are with you to help you get thru Sat. Just remember it is a celebration on Ron’s new life not the end of his old.

  April 1, 2005 at 5:04 pm #5196
  KP2112

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  Barbra,

  Although I have not been part of this forum for a long time, you and Ron seemed to touch a special place in my heart. Perhaps it was your overwhelming drive to fight and not give up, your support for others and your expression of emotion.

  I am truly sorry for your loss. At times such as these I often wonder why we are given the capacity to love so deeply knowing that one day a person will be taken from us or us from them. It does not make sense.

  Find strength in what you know, your daughter, memories, your familiy and friends.

  Wishing you peace and comfort.

  Kind Regards,
  Karen P.

  April 1, 2005 at 10:53 pm #5197
  mommachkate

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  Dear Barbara, You and Ron has a special place in my heart,and it is hurting for you. My deeepest sympathy for you and your daughter. I wish I could do something to ease your pain. My thoughts are with you.

  April 1, 2005 at 10:53 pm #5198
  mommachkate

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  I am sorry, I forget to sing, Kate

  April 2, 2005 at 7:15 am #5199
  CMH64

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  Barbra,

  You both have been such an inspiration to me as we have fought this horrible monster. Ron, with your able support and assistance at every turn, put up one heck of a fight and has won the victory! Thank God for your daughter! Be gentle with yourself and please let us know how you are doing. My thoughts have been with you daily. I pray for you, your daughter and the rest of your family to find peace and comfort in knowing that you provided everything that he needed. Cathy

  April 3, 2005 at 12:02 am #5200
  sarah

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  Barbra, been thinking of you and your family today.
  God Bless,
  Sarah

  April 3, 2005 at 1:24 am #5201
  Ani

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  Dear Barbara,
  You and Ron have been a part of my daily life since I “found ” this site over 2years ago.
  I grieve for you as part of your family, God bless you and give you peace, so easy to say but may it be so.
  Hugs
  Ani

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