In April, after having a routine blood test at my annual ob/gyn appointment, discovered I was anemic..not iron, not B12, on to onccologist, more blood and then BMB, I was given a slip of paper with "myelodysplastic syndrome" written on it. Assured I did not have cancer, was sent home to watch and wait. Then on to Northwestern Memorial Hospital in Chicago for a second opinion. Yes, I do have MDS, RARS, with 2% blasts. She said "I want you to leave here feeling good". Sure…..after telling me I have a chance to live another 10 years. My HGB goes down each month..10.4 in July, with RBC being below normal for the first time at 3.30. I am devastated. I’m only 60..my mother is 87 and I am her caregiver. I work full time. I have grandchildren I want to see grow up. I just can’t believe it. Where else should I go? Mayo, M.D. Anderson? Sorry to ramble on. I just can’t get my head around this.